This and that

It's been awhile. Things have been really busy.
We took a trip to Evans, GA which is right near Augusta. The drive down wasn't bad at all. It took us around 12 hours. We only had to fill up once along the way and we stopped in South Carolina for lunch at Chick-fil-a. We saw Rick Springfield, he played Don't Talk to Strangers for about 15 minutes. It was incredibly bad, but it became an inside joke during our trip. When Johnny played at the Bean on Saturday night, he added "Don't talk to Strangers" into Princes Purple Rain. ahahaha. Good times.
Great friends, great food, good drinks, and fun games. It was a blast and we were sad to leave. I can't wait to go there again some time. Maybe next time we will fly.

As for baby news.. we have been doing all kinds of fertility tests. Jason checked out okay, but I have PCOS. So, I'm on Metformin and the doctor wants to put me on Femara and hopefully we will be pregnant soon. *Fingers crossed*

Other than that, we've been keeping busy. Jason works all the over time he can and I've been busy with my books. I currently have 11 orders I need to get in the mail over the next few days so I better end this now and get working on that.

Questions Google Can't Answer

We are in a series at church right now called, "Why? Questions Google Can't Answer". Today, our pastor spoke about feeling the presence of God and why we don't always feel him. Is it God's fault or ours? I feel the presence of God a lot. But I've noticed that I don't usually feel his presence unless I'm open and receptive to it. That's MY fault, not His. I know that I would feel Him more if I was constantly reading the word, praying more (I'm getting better at that!) and just opening myself up to Him. I tend to let my own agenda get in the way. I hate to admit this, but I've got to be honest, it's been maybe 2 months since I opened the Bible. That's got to change! I need to make time for Him, every day! Anyway, I'm getting off track...
The sermon was great, Pastor Curt reminded us that feeling the presence of God is not always some huge feeling. It's not ALWAYS the huge show of emotion, the chills, the warm feeling you get, sometimes it's a whisper, but if we're not listening, we won't hear it. God is always with us, he is always in our presence, it's not HIS fault we can't feel him.

You can watch a video of the message at this link:
http://www.victorychurch.ws/media/watch-messages/

Swap-Bot

So, I came across this website called Swapbot:

I swap with Swap-bot!


Check it out!

Another Great Day!

I woke up this morning at 6:00 AM, had a bowl of Fiber One with skim milk and then I went to the gym. I got a really good workout! Ran some errands and now I'm home and starving! I just ate this amazing yogurt, toasted coconut vanilla! Yum!

Treasury and Orders

My Newspaper Mini book was featured in an Etsy Treasury called: "THE NEWS"

I also had two book orders today. Two very lovely books that I'm looking forward to making. I'm going to try to get one of these books finished tonight before I settle in to watch the Biggest Loser and then head off to sleepy land! I have an early day ahead of me tomorrow. I'm waking up at 6:00 AM to workout, then I'm volunteering at church for a few hours, have to run to the post office to mail off one of these books and then I have some grocery shopping to do. I'm making summer time veggie pizza for my small group on Thursday night.

Busy Bee

I have a craft show coming up in May and I've been spending a lot of time making mini books. It's a "Celebration of the Arts" show where I'll have my own vendor booth area. I've never done a show before but I'm excited about it! Since most of the books in my shop are for weddings, I decided to make the mini books so that I can appeal to all ages and occasions. So, I've been making about 2 or 3 a day for the past couple weeks. I figured it would be smart to offer books that are cute and cheap! ($12-$14) You can see them all in my Etsy Shop ;-)

Love Bird Books

Here's a picture of me working on one of the mini books.

Confession

I've been doing so amazing for the last week and a half. I've been tracking each and every thing, eating 5 servings of fruits and veggies a day, getting my water, my vitamins, my 2 servings of dairy, etc. I've been following all the rules and have been very satisified. And I was down 3 pounds on Friday.

Then tonight happened!

My day was going along really good, I had a bowl of Fiber One for breakfast with skim milk, a banana, and 2 cups of coffee. Then I had a slice of veggie pizza as a snack, then I made this really delicious spinach salad that was to die for. Later I had some Special K Chips which are ridiculously low in points. Then 6pm rolls around and I started craving and I couldn't get it out of my head. I was craving Fried Chicken of all things. I'm not sure where that came from. Then I debated on making some, but then I didn't want to deal with the mess of it all, then I thought about where I could go to buy fried chicken and that all sounded gross to me and then thinking about the grease kind of made me ill. By that time I didn't want chicken at all and that's all I currently have in the house right now (but I ALWAYS bake my chicken). So.. Jason got home and we went to Taco Bell.

I stared at that menu for 5 minutes. The lady in the drive thru kept asking me if I was ready but it took me so long to figure out what I wanted because the truth is, I didn't want any of it. Thinking about those burritos made me nauseas. Then Jason suggested I get the Nacho Bell Grande (which is SO high in PP) so that's what I ordered. I also ordered a chicken quesadilla and a pepsi (not diet pepsi, regular pepsi). I came home and ate it and now I feel awful. Not only is it not agreeing with my stomach but I feel awful about myself.

Are you for real?

I was messing around online today, jumping from blog to blog, reading DIY stuff and I came across a web designer. Her work is really beautiful and she specializes in making e-commerce websites, (ie: Websites with shopping carts, etc.) Even though I wasn't really looking for a web designer, I emailed her for a quote. We talked a little about what I was looking for and she quoted me $5000. Seriously? 5k? Is that normal? And she would just be building the site, I'd have to add my own content and maintain it myself. Considering the timeline I was given, that estimates approx $83.00 an hour.  That seems high. Am I being unreasonable?

Well, I'm glad I didn't have my heart set on it anyway.

In other news, I've learned the importance of stretching before and after work outs. I could feel my calf muscles tightening up last night, I felt like I was going to get a charlie horse. It woke me up several times during the night, then I woke up this morning and I can barely stand up straight. I'm incredibly sore! I decided to skip working out today and focus on house work instead. It's now 7:30 and I'm just going to get some sleep because I don't want to deal with this pain anymore. I'm seriously considering an ice bath.

Tomorrow: Root Canal. Oh Joy.

Elliptical Machine

I'm so proud of myself. This morning I went to the gym and decided to work out on the elliptical. That machine intimidates me. It doesn't feel natural to me at all, and most of the time I feel like I could fall off at any second, but my left knee has been bothering me for the last week so I decided to give it a shot because I've heard it's good for your joints, less impact and such.

I talked Jason into doing it with me and when we got on the machines, our conversation went something like this:
Jason: "How long are we going?"
Me: "Umm.. I don't know how long I'll be able to do this."
Jason: "Well, I'm setting it for 30 minutes."

After a few minutes on the machine, I was ready to quit. I was staring at the treadmills in front of me and seriously considering hopping on one of those, but I powered through, put on my music, covered the electronic timer and just kept going. After 10 minutes, the muscle pain stopped and it became kind of fun! I went the entire 30 minutes right alongside Jason.

WINNING!

Goals

I joined Weight Watchers in January and since then, I've been posting on a "Central PA" message board for Weight Watchers. I've had the pleasure to get to know some really wonderful ladies. I've only met one in person and we became fast friends. Yesterday, I met 4 others at a lunch in Enola, PA. We got together at Hoss's. I walked in the door and saw pictures of fried chicken, steak, etc. YIKES! Not what a person focused on weight loss needs to see, right? Well, I was good. I took advantage of the salad bar (and only the salad bar). Yay for me.

I've been praying a lot about this weight loss thing, mostly I've just been asking God to help me with my willpower. I know I can do this, I KNOW I CAN! My biggest challenge, my biggest hurdle, my biggest competitor is.. ..myself. Over the last two days I've seen a change. I'm making healthier choices and I'm being really conscious of what I'm doing and my physical activity. One of the ladies from WW posed a challenge, track every single thing for one week and walk 1 mile a day. I've taken that challenge. I'm only halfway through it, but I'm feeling good. Now I just need to stop weighing myself every day. It's messing with my head!

My Goal: Lose 25lbs by July.
That gives me 2 and half months.
I can do this!
I know I can!

Closing Chapters

I feel like a failure when it comes to weight loss. I get so excited in the beginning and I track my points, I plan my meals, I set myself on the right track and then BAM! Something happens to steer me off track and it's so hard to get back on. I started Weight Watchers again on Jan. 1st. I lost 5lbs that first week, then I found out I was pregnant. I stayed on Weight Watchers and maintained the same weight and then I miscarried and went through some emotional eating. I still managed to maintain and then I got back on track. I started tracking again and even did some exercising, then I had dental surgery and now I'm having trouble getting back on track. I'm all healed up, totally capable of going to the gym every day, and yet.. here I sit. !!!!!!!!!!!

Moving on..
A couple weeks ago we went to church, it was a typical Saturday night service, I walked in those doors a bit unwilling. I had to tear myself away from World of Warcraft and talk myself into going. I would have much rather stayed home playing in my little fantasy world. The worship music started and I was in a sour mood. I was mouthing the words but not really feeling it. I was thinking about everything BUT God. Those four worship songs seemed to last forever and I remember thinking to myself, "Geez, I'm sorry God but I just don't want to be here right now. I'm a horrible person to be standing in church thinking this, what is wrong with me?" Then service started. I was still not in a great mood, then they showed this video:



At the end of the video, this man had a message for his wife:
"I don't think there is anything that I haven't already told you. I love you. I know you love me. My biggest regret is that this illness has caused a lot of emotional pain for you but I do know that we have grown as a couple. And that I love you, and that I hope one day after I'm gone, you can find somebody that loves you as much as I do now."

When he started talking about how he hopes one day his wife will find someone that loves her as much as he loves her, I got really emotional. I started crying and all I could think about was Jason. I love him so much, not a day goes by that we don't tell each other just how much. I'm so blessed to have him in my life. I kept thinking, if I die tomorrow, what regrets will I have? The answer: A LOT!

1. I'll regret that I don't spend enough time with my husband.
2. I'll regret that I don't have a lot of friendships outside of my beloved video game.
3. I'll regret that most of Jasons memories of me will be the time we shared together in a video game with our virtual characters and not each other.

I was so overcome with grief of all the time I've lost. I've spent the last six years completely addicted to World of Warcraft. I justified it by saying, "Well, if I didn't play WOW, I'd just be watching TV anyway, at least I'm using my brain." or.. "I don't have any friends here in Pennsylvania and at least I can play with my long distance friends in WOW." or.. "It's the cheapest form of entertainment and I'd rather be sitting at home playing this than spending $30 bucks at the movies." I came up with so many ways to justify my addiction to this game. But the reality is that, I ignored my family, I ignored my life passing me by, I put off daily chores, errands, cooking, cleaning, house maintenance. I passed up on opportunities to hang out with friends and develop real relationships, I missed out on church more than a few times, I thought about reading the Bible, and then I decided I'd rather raid. I neglected my husband, our animals, our friends. The list goes on and on.

So, as I sat there in church, listening to the sermon, tears were streaming down my face and I couldn't stop them. This is usually how the Lord gets to me. He puts something on my heart and makes it SO heavy that I just can't ignore it and I begin to cry. It happens a lot at my church. He always gives me what I need and shows me the path I'm supposed to be on, and whether it's a joyful tugging at my heart strings, or a painful one, it always ends up with me crying. I knew what I had to do. I had to stop playing. I thought, "I'll go home and tell everyone I can't play anymore and then i'll cancel my account." but no.. That wasn't good enough. That's when I knew what I really had to do. I went home and deleted all my characters, uninstalled the game and cancelled my account. It was heart breaking. People don't understand, it's not just a video game, it's a community of gamers. It's a family. Jason and I were leaders of our "Guild" and we have very close relationships with these people. We talk to them daily and have even met some of them outside the game. Saying goodbye wasn't easy, but it was necessary.

I never asked Jason to quit. I didn't suggest it, in fact, I told him, "I want you to know that I'm not going to pressure you into quitting." He said, "Yeah, I know." While I was going through the process of deleting my characters, Jason was playing around on his. It took me about an hour and just when I was almost done, Jason announced he was going to delete his too. He said he started talking to another player in the game about achievements, and this other guy was saying how he hadn't accomplished everything he needed to in the game and Jason thought, "I've been playing this game for 7 years and it's still not over. It will never be over. I'll never be finished with it." Enough was enough. He deleted, uninstalled, and unsubscribed.

We closed our World of Warcraft chapter in our life. As Jason put it, "We have each dumped 6 and 7 years into this game and have come to realize that other then awesome friends and guild, we haven't achieved anything life-worthy. We need this for our life plan and to achieve our goals." I'm proud of us.

So, for the past couple weeks, we have gone fishing, we've gotten a ton of things done around the house. We've crossed a lot of things off that proverbial "TO-DO List". We get to bed at a decent hour, we wake up early and start our day on the right track. I'm happy to say, things are looking up in the Bledsoe house :)

If only we could get the weight thing under control.. *sigh* One day at a time..

These pictures are from our little fishing trip on Tuesday. We rented a boat at Muddy Run. Didn't catch anything but we had a great time!

The Gym, eww!

When I woke up today, I DID NOT want to go to the gym. I looked for anything and everything to do besides going to the gym. Then, I finally talked myself into going. It was a little voice in my head that said, "You have to." So I did. I feel so much better about it too. I learned today that the hardest part about working out at the gym is NOT the work out, it's the motivation to go.
Once I was there, I felt really good. I had an amazing work out, I pushed myself, and I left the gym feeling empowered and I also felt really good about myself.

On a side note: Why do people stick their gum in the cup holders on the treadmill? That's disgusting people!

February of Fun

It's been a wonderful month in the Bledsoe household! Jason had to work on Valentine's Day, but when he got home, he took me to Helzberg Diamonds and let me pick out a ruby heart ring. It's beautiful! I had it sized down to a 6 but I think I might need to go a little smaller cause it's somewhat loose. The weekend after Valentine's Day, we officially celebrated with a trip to Baltimore. I completely went off the Weight Watchers program that weekend. I tried to make good choices in the beginning but that didn't last long. I ended up gaining 3lbs that weekend, Jason gained 6. I'm sure it was mostly water weight but.. weight is weight, right? We've since worked all that off.

While we were in Baltimore, we went to the Aquarium at the Harbor. It was really cool. We saw dolphins and all sorts of sea creatures. It just re-affirms my belief that humans shouldn't be swimming around in the ocean. I'll stay on the shore, thank you.
We also went to the Baltimore IKEA. We picked up two square bookcases, a coat hanger shelf thing, a shoe rack, a magnetic board for my office, and some other organizational things for the office.

Jason has been talking about getting a recliner since we met. Finally four years later, he got one! We found a really good deal at a place called Furniture To Go in Lancaster. When Jasons not in the chair, the cats take up residence. We also decided to buy new furniture for the living room at a place called Interiors. We got a really good deal on a sofa and loveseat combo. It's going to be delivered in about 4 weeks.

I know it seems like we've purchased a lot this month, we have. But it's stuff we've been needing for a really long time. Almost all the furniture in our home is "Hand me Down" stuff. It feels good to buy things that we are picking out ourselves. Although, we greatly appreciate how generous our family has been these last few years. When Jason and I first moved in together back in Arizona, we moved into our first home with my full size bed and THAT's IT! No couches, no desks, no dining table. We actually had Jasons computer setup on the kitchen counter and we used boxes as night stand tables. It just reminds me of how blessed we truly are and how God is continuing to bless us each and every day. We've come a long way the past few years and we wouldn't be where we are right now without God. He is amazing, isn't He? :)

Here's some pictures taken this month:

I've been incredibly busy lately. I've only made 1 sale in my new shop, but working on getting a solid inventory has taken over my life this week. 1, 2, sometimes 3 books a day. I spend entirely too much time on Facebook, Twitter, and stuff like that. But hey, I have nothing but free time, right? I need to remember to relax and have fun. :)
We went to Lowes yesterday. Jason built me a book board holder thing that helps me drill holes. Last year I drilled 3 holes in our dining room table and last week I drilled a hole on our KITCHEN COUNTER! It's just ridiculous. Power tools are not my friend.
Last night we got an inch of snow. It's just a dusting, nothing spectacular. I'm hoping we get one big snow before the winter is over. I love watching the huge flakes fall from the sky, it's beautiful. I feel totally jipped this year!

Snow!

We've had a really mild winter here in PA. We had one freak storm back in October, then it didn't snow again until January. We got about 2-3 inches and it was gone in two days because the temperature shot up to 60 degrees. When I lived in Wisconsin, I absolutely dreaded the snow because it was a blizzard every week! NO THANK YOU! But the snow in PA is pretty light. That's what I love about living here. The winters are cold, but not too cold. Snow, but not too much snow. The summers are hot, but not too hot.. you get the idea.
So, yesterday it snowed 1 inch and waking up this morning to a bright and beautiful world outside really just puts me in the BEST mood!
Jason has been home from work all week. He hasn't been feeling well so he's taking some time off to get better. It's been nice having him around the house this week, although it does throw off my schedule quite a bit. I like getting up at 4:00, seeing him off to work and getting started with the day. When he's home, I end up sleeping in until 9 or 10am and then I feel like a lazy bum the rest of the day. My own fault! It's just so hard to get up in the mornings when I know I don't really NEED to.
I was supposed to meet a friend for lunch today but she had to cancel. (Sick kid) So, I think I'll spend the day tidying up the house a bit and making books: -> Love Bird Books - My Etsy Shop!

Pictures of the kitties from this week:

Love Bird Books

Etsy Shop

So, I've decided to open an Etsy store so that I can sell books. I've had two Etsy stores in the past but I was forced to close them because I just couldn't keep up with the amount of orders I had. It was overwhelming to have a day job and then spend 8-10 hours at home working on my "side job". Since we moved to PA, I've been procrastinating about getting it up and running again. I've finally decided to do it and I'm hoping I will see some success. :)

The new Etsy shop is: http://lovebirdbooks.etsy.com
I don't have anything in there right now but I'll be adding things tomorrow :)

Chef Lora

Tonight I made two healthy Asian dishes. The first one was Wontons, instead of filling them with meat or cream cheese, I filled them with a mixture of boiled potatos, low fat cheese, and low fat sour cream. Instead of frying, I baked them. They turned out delicious!
I also made Honey-Ginger Chicken Thighs. I think I've had my fill of chinese food this week. LOL

Conversations with God

We just finished a series at church called "Conversations with God". It was about prayer and how to make the most of it. Last night I had an intimate moment with God. I shared it with my pastor in an e-mail:


Hi Pastor Curt,
Prayer is something I've really been struggling with. I hear other people pray at church and it sounds so beautiful but when I pray, I feel like a bumbling idiot most of the time. Totally not confident, unsure, sometimes even embarassed. Like most series, I felt like this one was molded for me. Last night, I actually had a conversation with God. I felt like I was talking with him and not TO him. It was the first time that I really felt his presence during prayer. I felt like he was listening to me and even responding to me by putting different thoughts into my head.. It was wonderful!
Anyway, Just wanted to share.
Lora


He responded with the following: 


Lora,
Wow!!! That is exactly what it was, the Lord was speaking to you. Now, combine that with reading His Word! I love emails like this!!!
I am so excited for you! Getting used to talking with God is kind of like getting use to talking to a stranger If you never had a conversation with a stranger before, I am sure the conversation would not be that flowery. But, given time, it becomes beautiful :-)
So proud of you,
PC


A lot of people say that God is their best friend, he is not my best friend, BUT I really want him to be. I'm going to start making more time for God in my life, the way I would make time for family or friends. Afterall, he is my heavenly father. I'm going to start setting aside an hour (or more) each morning to read the bible and really dive into prayer. I'm excited!

Homemade Chinese

Tonight I made homemade Chinese food and it was pretty easy, not to mention super tasty! I actually like this better than the stuff I've had from take-out restaurants. I followed the recipe, the only thing I did differently was add scallions. I just LOVE scallions. Here's the link to the recipe: http://www.weightwatchers.com/food/rcp/RecipePage.aspx?recipeid=225421

Today was a great day! I went to church this morning and it was an amazing service! Afterwards, I treated myself to a manicure and then I had lunch with my friend Juanita. She made a Southwestern Soup that I gave her the recipe.
I came home and talked to Ryan on Skype. Then, Evan and I made funny faces at each other for a good 5 minutes. I love that kiddo!

Routine

Jason works on a rotating schedule of days and nights. One week he will work 6:00am-6:00pm and the next week it's 6:00pm-6:00am. Then about once a month he has a "long break" and gets six days off. Well, we just came off one of these long breaks and now we're trying to adjust to the night time schedule. If I can get in bed by 10:00pm, then I can easily wake up at 6:00am and have "dinner" on the table for Jason when he gets home. Unfortunately, I've been struggling the last few days to get my schedule in check. This morning I woke up at 6:00 made him dinner and after he went to bed I passed out on the couch for 3 hours. What a bum! lol

I got some grocery shopping done today. We are back on track with Weight Watchers and I have printed several recipes that I want to try this week. Most of them are Asian themed. Beef and Broccoli Stir-Fry, Potato & Cheese Wontons, and Honey Ginger Chicken Thighs (on a stick). YUM!

Tonight I made Apple Braised Chicken. It was delicious! I tried to make this once before but instead of using apple cider like the recipe called for, I used apple cider vinegar. It wasn't edible. THIS TIME, it was edible, and quite good! It was really easy to make and it hardly took me anytime at all. If anyone would like the recipe, let me know.

My brother Ryan is in Shanghai right now with his wife Kim and their son Evan. They are adopting a another little boy into their family. His name is Joel. :) I'm so excited for them and I'm praying that they have a wonderful time in China and that Joel bonds with them quickly! Tonight I got to Skype with them in Shanghai! Here's a couple pictures. I can't wait for more updates and hopefully I'll get to meet Joel this year.

Void

Last summer we stopped going to church. Jason finished training and his hectic schedule, combined with lack of sleep made us skip a couple Sundays. Then we went out of town and pretty soon it go to the point where we hadn't been to church in two months. I really missed it, so we went one Sunday and there was a guest pastor that was speaking. I felt so disconnected and I just didn't feel that strong urge to be there. We skipped the next Sunday and every Sunday after that. I felt bad about it, but at the same time, I didn't want to go just because I felt guilty. Well, over the past couple months, I feel like God has been calling me back to church.

We went on Christmas Eve and it was nice to see every one again. I felt like we were back where we belonged. We've been going back every week since then and I feel like a whole person again. When we stopped going, I felt this void in my heart and an unhappiness in my soul. It was hard to pinpoint where that feeling was coming from, but now I know. I never want to feel that again. I am most happy when I'm filled with the spirit of God.

IKEA Desks

When we moved into our house last year, we realized that something would need to be done about our spare rooms. We set one up as an office.. two large desks, one large credenza and very little walking room. We set the other one up as a guest room.. full size bed, small end table. (nothing fancy). Since we've been family planning we realized we would need to convert the office into a guest room. So, Jason went to IKEA online and designed some desks for us. We figured if we got rid of the old bulky desk and credenzas, we might have room to move a bed in, and free up the other room for a nursery/kids room. We took a short road trip to the IKEA in Baltimore, MD yesterday and we ended up leaving with two desks and a large hanging wall mount/shelf thing (Not pictured yet.) When we got home, we were so excited to put it together. Jason tasked me with emptying out the old desks and cleaning up the office while he put together the new desks. We spent several hours and now we have the finished product! A beautiful, neat, clean, modern office with desks that WE picked out. No more "hand me down" furniture in this room! It feels great! Now, we just need to hang up the wall shelf above our computers. Eventually we will move the bed from the other room in here, but we're not in a rush to do that.
The name of these desks from IKEA is: Vika Gruvan

Happenings

This last Saturday, I invited a new friend over for lunch. Her name is Sherry, I met her on a Weight Watchers message board. We decided to meet for lunch two weeks ago at the Olive Garden. As soon as she sat down and we started talking, it felt like we'd known each other for years. I feel like I can talk to her about anything, she's wonderful! So anyway, I wanted her to meet Jason, so I invited her and her daughter Amorette over for Quesadillas. We also invited John. It was a really good time and it feels good to be making friends here (finally!)

On Saturday night I started feeling this weird chest pain, nothing seriously painful, just a dull ache. I thought it was really strange, so I told Jason about it and we went to the store to pick up some chewable aspirin. I went to bed and when I woke up on Sunday morning the pain was still there. We went to church (which was fantastic by the way! We both felt that Pastor Curt was speaking directly to us! I love it when that happens.) Anyway.. we went to church and when we got home, we made some lunch and then I laid down for a nap around 2pm. I woke up at 7pm, stayed up for a couple hours and then went to sleep for the night (another 10 hours!) That's just not normal. I called my primary care physician this morning and was able to get in this afternoon. The EKG looked fine, everything seemed normal, cholesterol is really low. They ended up sending me to the ER. So, I spent 5 hours in the ER today. I had bloodwork, xrays, cat scan, the whole thing. I'm totally fine and they can't figure out what is causing the pain. I was told to follow up with my family physician in a couple weeks. I'm relieved that everything turned out normal on my tests and I hope this pain goes away.