Feeling BETTER!

So, I saw the doctor this morning and it's official. I experienced an early miscarriage. She explained that it's common and then asked if we were actively trying to conceive. (Yes) So, she gave me a lot of really good information and encouraged me a lot. She said, "Let's get aggressive about this." Okay! Let's do this!

I left her office feeling so much better about the whole situation and I'm ready to try again. Hopefully with better results next time!

Bad Day

I went to the OB/Gyn today for my "Confirmation appointment" I was really excited. I peed in the cup and waited in the chair for the nurse to take my blood pressure. She turned to me and said, "This test is negative." and she looked at me like I was a whacko. I was totally in shock and disbelief. She said, "I'll ask the doctor if she wants me to take another one." So, she took another one. It was negative. I felt like I had to defend my positive pregnancy test. Then she took me to an exam room and left me there to wait for the doctor. I cried and tried to compose myself the best I could. When the doctor came in she talked to me about the possibility of a "chemical pregnancy" and the possibility of a "missed miscarriage".
So I guess it's over. I'm no longer pregnant. I have no idea what happened but I'm scheduled for blood work this week and I'll know more on Friday. Jason and I are going in together and we're going to tell the doctor that we are serious about getting pregnant and we need to know what needs to be done to make that happen.

I feel foolish. We told everyone in the free world and now I just feel like a big fat failure, I feel like a disappointment.

I couldn't ask for a more loving and supportive husband. I feel so lucky to be his wife. <3

Jesus Culture

Thyroid is normal!

I truly believe God is looking out for me!
I just got back from my doctor appointment and I found out that my thyroid hormone level is in the normal range. Whew! I'm so so happy and relieved. :)

Freaking myself out

I freaked myself out today. I was reading in "What to Expect" that not taking thyroid hormone replacement during your first trimester can cause miscarriages and brain damage. I've never been good at taking pills every day and up until I found out I was pregnant, I would go several days without taking it, then I'd be good and take it every day, and then skip a day. It wasn't on purpose, it's just really hard to remember to take it first thing in the morning. I called my primary care doctor on the day I got the positive test and set up an appointment with him to go over my thyroid. He called in a new prescription of a much higher dose and I've been taking it religiously since Tuesday morning. I have an appointment with my doctor tomorrow to find out where I stand on my thyroid, I'm really hoping for good news.
On top of being freaked out about this, I noticed I was peeing a lot less today and I haven't been feeling abdominal twinges like I have for the past week, so of course my mind started wandering and that's never a good thing. I took a big long nap and since then, I've been nauseated and feeling really warm. I don't have a fever, but Jason researched and found that pregnancy hormones are going to make me feel hot.

I'm crossing my fingers for a good appointment tomorrow, and I see my OB on Tuesday, I can't wait!

We announced it!

So, we decided to announce the news to everyone! I was going to wait until after the first trimester, but it's just so hard to keep this secret! Jason said today, "Why don't we just post it on Facebook?" So, that's what we did!

Today I had lunch with Sherry, she's a woman I met on the Weight Watchers "Neighbors" forum. She lives about 10 minutes west of us. We met at Olive Garden and as soon as she sat down, we started talking and I felt like I've known her for years. She is so sweet and I just can't wait to get to know her more.

After lunch with Sherry, Jason and I ran some errands. We went to Barnes and Noble because I wanted to buy the book, "Big, Beautiful, and Pregnant" but it was out of stock. I ordered it and will pick it up next week. We also bought a baby name book and "What to Expect When You're Expecting". I'm excited to start reading that.

I've officially stopped going to pregnancy forums. I just can't handle it. It puts so much fear and anxiety in my heart reading the stories and posts of people that are having miscarriages every day. I'm just going to pray, read my baby books, and stay positive!

Dull pain

I have a faint but persistent pain in my abdomen. It's on the left side and my lower back hurts a little. I know it's probably digestive or something related to that. I think I've felt this pain before (when I wasn't pregnant) but of course now that I'm pregnant, I'm paying attention to everything my body is doing. I had trouble falling asleep last night because of this pain. I woke up this morning and it was gone, but it's back now. It could be anything, and I've read that a little pain in that area is normal during the first trimester, I just can't help but worry. I'm going to stay positive and try my best not to worry.